Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Complicated

It seems I’ve been neglecting my beloved page here. So sorry, just been really busy and sometimes I feel like everything’s happening around me and with me in it at the same time. You know that feeling? It’s like when you’re walking in the middle of a busy sidewalk and although you’re moving like everyone else, you still feel like there are so many things going on around you at the same time that it almost feels overwhelming and confusing.

I am amazed at how life can get so complicated in a glimpse of an eye. I’m not even going to elaborate on this. It just is.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

One heck of an experience

Life is

simple yet complicated
amazing
ridiculous
wonderful
painful
exciting
hard

... truth be told, life is just hard to describe in a single word. There's no knowing what tomorrow may bring, no guarantees, full of risks and just plain unpredictable. Sometimes I find myself thinking about it and I gotta tell you, there are moments when you just sit and marvel at how truly painful and amazing everything is at the same time.

The Fam

I hung out tonight with a very cool colleague and had a blast. It just so happens it's one of those nights when the BF and I enjoy our own sets of "friendlies" from our respective work places and then tell each other what happened afterwards. The sweet BF has gone to bed so I'm left with no course but to go online and write about it instead. Perhaps I will tell him tomorrow instead.

Anyhow, I just realized that when I feel comfortable talking to someone, I actually tend to talk about my family a lot. And when I mean a lot, I mean a lot! I am one of those people, extremely happy to be around the parents and the siblings. I love 'em so much! I think my family are among the sweetest people on Earth. Just now when I got home, JR knocked on my bedroom door, gave me a hug and asked me how my day was. This is my 21 year old brother we are talking about here people. How many of you can say that about your brothers? See?

A lot of people tell me that moving out teaches you a lot about being responsible and all. I believe them. I really do. Eventhough the idea of not having to report to anyone is pretty nice, I really, really love coming home everyday to my parents and my brothers. Surprising, but I love having brothers that bug me every now and then. I love barging in on them when they're in the bathroom because I know they don't like it. I love sitting down for dinner with them and telling each other about our day, exchanging stories and just talking.

I'm very blessed to have a wonderful, loving family and very blessed to have them with me so I am going to enjoy every bit of it while I can.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Great songs, Great Album

Ok, I have to say this and I'm only going to say this once...

I love Stacie Orrico's new album entitled Beautiful Awakening!

Whew! There I said it.

If you knew me, you would know I hardly say I love a certain album. Most of the time I find I only really like a few songs out of the normal 11-15 songs in the entire disk. To narrow it down even further for you, I normally just like 3-5 songs. So, if I find that the number of songs I like is significantly more than the ones I don't like, the said album will get a compliment from me.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

What the...?!

Last weekend, my sweet BF and I were walking down his street going to the bus stop. We were trying to walk as fast as we could, it being cold outside and all. He was mostly the one walking fast and I was helplessly trying to catch up. Suddenly, sweet BF stops, turns to me and smiles. I smile back, still walking towards him and expecting him to continue walking once I got closer. So, I get there and by this time we're just standing there at the sidewalk with me giving him a puzzled look.

"Why? What's up?" I innocently asked.

"Look", he said, pointing to something on the ground.

"What the hell...?" I replied, looking at what looks to me like a pair of used condoms. "Is that what I think it is?" I asked.

Laughter. "Yep, condoms." he replies, still laughing.

"Are you sure? Why would they be here? That doesn't make any sense!" replied I, still gazing at them while conjuring all possibly scenarios as to why these condoms would be lying there in plain sight in the middle of the sidewalk.

"I don't know! Do you think they're used or was someone just playing with them and decided to leave them there?" He asked, still a bit amused.

"Ew. If they're, in fact, used, that's just wrong to leave them here. And if someone was playing with them... why the hell would they be playing with condoms in the first place?!" I replied, still trying to think of a possible explanation. I still had my doubts as to whether they were in fact what we thought they were. After all, condoms aren't something you see lying around in my country. In fact, I have yet to see someone buying a pack of condoms from the store... I'm sure the older lady standing beside you would've raised her eyebrows and looked you over.

So, we left them there and continued walking.

Really people, if you use one, throw it in the garbage afterwards! Like anyone wants to see that!!

Ew. SERIOUSLY!

Church Bells A' Ringing!

Nowadays, it seems everyone is either getting married or having a baby. I almost feel as if a memo was sent out and I somehow didn't get it. I am by no means bitter. In fact, I am extremely happy for them. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm suprised by how fast time flies. Just yesterday we were still in college figuring what the hell we were going to do for our thesis. And now, they're busy planning for a wedding and some are having a baby. A BABY! Wow, I don't even know if I'm ready for one. I need to find a husband first!

Just the other day I was chatting with L and S and L told us that one of our classmates recently got married and is currently expecting a baby.

"Which came first?" S asked.

"I don't know. I didn't ask. I didn't think it was appropriate" L replied.

"Really huh? anu ba yan, huli nako sa balita" was all I could say.

Sure, I knew eventually we'll settle down and have families of our own. I just never expected it to be so soon. Ok, more like I didn't expect anything before the age of 25. I don't even know why I have an age in mind or why that age for that matter. It's just there.

I can't wait to see them, meet their husbands, hold their babies. It's weird and amazing at the same time. One minute you're sitting in class, learning programming 101 and every now and then imagining who's going to marry who and what your children will look like. And now? Now, we can actually see! Ain't that something?

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

I Scream, You Scream, We All Scream For Karen

As ya'll know, I'm trying to think of a "catchy" tagline/description for my beloved page here and my brain just can't seem to produce anything that could be described as

original
artistic
funny

and so sad to say, I started to browse online and see if there's anything that would catch my eye and quite possibly inspire me to think of something.

It was then I remembered the Slogan Generator. It was something someone posted on Friendster awhile back and I thought I should take a look at it again. With Google's assistance (Google seems to be my friend these days), I was able to find it at Slogan Generator. for the fun of it, I entered my name and just kept on clicking on the Sloganize Button and found some really interesting combinations:

You like karen, karen likes you
Stop. Go. Karen
Gotta Lotta Karen
Give that man a karen
Karen comes to those who wait
Make Karen yours
Everything we do is driven by Karen
Reach out and touch Karen
The Best part of waking up is Karen in your cup
It takes tough man to make a tender Karen
Have a Karen and Smile
Bridge that gap with Karen
The Karen effect
When you've got Karen, flaunt it
Now with 50% more karen
Designed for Karen, engineered to last
The best Karen a man can get
With a Name like Karen, it has to be good
The Karen of a new generation
Men can't help acting on karen
Tonight, let it be Karen
Have you forgotten how good karen tastes?
So easy, no wonder Karen is #1
Mama Mia, that's one spicy karen
Karen - it does a body good
Strong and beautiful, just like karen
Just do karen
I'd like to buy the world a karen
Life's pretty straight without karen
The Loudest noise comes from the electric karen
Out of the strong came forth karen
Who would you have a karen with?
We're serious about karen
Great Karen, Great times
It's a Bit of Karen
It's the bright one, it's the right one, that's karen
Watch out! There's a karen about
A Karen a day helps you work, rest and play
Smart, beautiful, karen
Does she or doesn't she? Only karen knows for sure
No Karen, No Comment
I Scream, You Scream, We all scream for Karen
More than just a karen

LOL! Sorry guys, it seems the sloganizer adores me! LOL

Monday, January 15, 2007

Gadgets OF My Time

My mom told me this morning that I plugged the portable heater to the surge suppressor but forgot to turn it on. I told her I didn’t have to since I plugged it into the socket that’s always on. She gave me a puzzled look and repeated herself and I replied with the exact same answer. Again, a puzzled look. I told her not to worry about it and that it’s fine the way it is. She gave me a shrug and went to wake Miguel. She’s so funny. She gets everything but sometimes when it comes to certain things, you have to explain it to her twice and actually show how it works. My grandma on the other hand… there are no words. But then again I can understand why my grandma gets so confused…I mean, after all computers weren’t popular during her time…let alone digital cameras, mp3 players and webcams. She was so fascinated with the whole webcam thing and kept asking me where the sound was coming from. Awwww…

Sometimes I wonder if I’ll be just as confused as her when I grow to be 60, 70 or 80 years old. Will I be able to catch up with technology and everything else or will I be left behind forever wondering what happened to the good ol' gadgets of my time?

Love Will Keep Us Alive

Love this song. It's so soothing and the Eagles sang it so well..just listen to it... need I say more?

I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide

Lost and lonely
Now you’ve given me the will to survive
When we’re hungry...love will keep us alive

Don’t you worry
Sometimes you’ve just gotta let it ride
The world is changing
Right before your eyes
Now I’ve found you
There’s no more emptiness inside
When we’re hungry...love will keep us alive

I would die for you
Climb the highest mountain
Baby, there’s nothing I wouldn’t do

I was standing
All alone against the worlk outside
You were searching
For a place to hide
Lost and lonely
Now you’ve given me the will to survive
When we’re hungry...love will keep us alive
When we’re hungry...love will keep us alive
When we’re hungry...love will keep us alive

Love Will Keep Us Alive
The Eagles

Waking Up From Hibernation

Busy busy busy…busy as a bee…just wanted to tell you, I’m busy as can be!

I’m trying to fit everyone in my calendar and it’s been chaotic. Sometimes I wish I had a clone.

Shey, Len, Pao and I caught each other online today which is pretty rare so we decided to have a nice long chat and do some catching up. Too bad Pao couldn’t stay long with it being well past midnight his time. Him and Len were in the same timezone but I guess Len didn’t feel like going to bed yet and stayed online for quite sometime. Shey on the other hand is only 6 hours ahead of me so it wasn’t so bad for her. Len is finally going to the US in a few weeks and I’m so happy for her. I love it when my friends go abroad because then I feel like they can better relate to me when I complain about the cold and all the different things I come across being so far away. It’s not the same when I say it’s -10 degrees and I’m freezing my butt off and them imagining what -10 degrees might actually feel like than when they’ve actually been there and knows what it actually feels like. I’m also happy for them – being able to see different places and meeting so many different people. They’re so lucky they get to travel and not pay a cent for it. One of the good things about it is that they travel as a team and they don’t have to go alone. That would’ve been such a bummer.

I only wish I could see them but if either one of us applied for a VISA now, we won’t be able to get it on time for us to see each other. I guess the easiest way is if I went back home for a vacation. I just have to make sure they’re in the country when I go or else it would be a waste.

Juhl posted some new pictures on his Friendster page. It’s amazing how fast his nephews and nieces grow! It’s only been 2 and a half years since I moved to Canada and yet it seems so many things have happened since. It always surprises me when I hear someone’s getting married or having a baby or have done both already. It’s as if I went on hibernaton and just woke up and am struggling to catch up on what’s been happening.

A year goes by so fast and yet so many things happen in just a single year. I wonder how many things would’ve changed by the time I come back.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

French Anyone?

I had so many ideas on what I wanted to post here but as soon as I got on my laptop, they all vanished into thin air! So, I played with my layout again and tried a few things.

I went home early tonight with every intention of going to bed earlier than usual. But here I am, in front my laptop, typing away. This is so bad!

Jerry and I did a bit of shopping today. We didn't buy a lot of stuff...just ones that we needed. We decided to stop by Indigo and buy a few books since Steve gave me a $50 gift card there. I love books so giving me an Indigo gift card is always a good gift. I didn't really have a specific book I wanted to get so Jerry decided I should probably buy something useful. We ended up buying a French Complete Course Book which I thought was pretty amazing since I've always wanted to learn French (this is a move forward to working on "my list").

JR teased me about learning French and said he'd probably do better at it since he says he has a knack for learning languages. Ha!

Saturday, January 13, 2007

The World Is A Small Place

More and more I realize that the world truly is a small place.

I've moved halfway around the world only to find that a friend from highschool lives down the street. Just recently, I found out that a close friend's BF is actually good friends with another highschool friend of mine. Sometimes it makes you think, with all the billions of people in the world, why does it seem we're just going in circles? LOL

It really is interesting though.

It Pours

It's true what they say, "When it rains, it pours..."

Just this week I was telling myself how unbelievably slow my work days have been for the past week. I cannot stress enough on the word slow. A better description would probably be to say that there is absolutely nothing to do. Not that I was complaining (alright, I was... but only a teeny, tiny bit) because it was really nice not having to train and talk the whole freakin' day.

And then today I had a training scheduled which took forever to finish and by the end of the day, I looked at my calendar and boy, was I swamped for the days ahead.

May God grant me patience.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Be Not Afraid

You shall cross the barren desert, but you shall not die of thirst.
You shall wander far in safety though you do not know the way.
You shall speak your words in foreign lands and all will understand.
You shall see the face of God and live.

Be not afraid.
I go before you always;
Come follow me,
and I will give you rest.

If you pass through raging waters in the sea, you shall not drown.
If you walk amid the burning flames, you shall not be harmed.
If you stand before the pow'r of hell and death is at your side,
know that I am with you through it all.

Be not afraid.
I go before you always;
Come follow me,
and I will give you rest.

Blessed are your poor, for the kingdom shall be theirs.
Blest are you that weep and mourn, for one day you shall laugh.
And if wicked men insult and hate you all because of me,
blessed, blessed are you!

Be not afraid.
I go before you always;
Come follow me,
and I will give you rest.

My Idea of Heaven

I never thought I'd get here; I was so far away
I didn't believe in love,
thought it was just a game people played
Everything changed when I met you
I touched your hand, you took my heart
And you led me to a better place,
just the two of us in the dark...

This is my idea of heaven, lying here with you
This is my idea of heaven, nothing else, I'd rather do

I never thought you'd get here, why'd you make me wait?
And when I looked into your eyes,
I recognised your words my faith
I've been living in a lonely shell, with no windows, to the world
How in God's name did you find, a lonestar
Loneliest girl...

This is my idea of heaven, lying here with you
This is my idea of heaven, nothing else, I'd rather do

To feel your heart, beating
To feel our lips, meeting

This is my idea of heaven, ooh
In heaven, love is everywhere
There is no pain, there are no tears
In heaven, love lasts forever, it doesn't, disappear...

This is my idea of heaven, lying here with you
This is my idea of heaven, nothing else, I'd rather do

To feel your heart, beating
To feel our limits, meeting

This is my idea of heaven, ooh
This is my idea of heaven, lying here with you


My Idea of Heaven
Leigh Nash

Shopping Irony

With all my shopping crazyness, I've come up with my very own shopping ironies.
  1. When I'm at the mall, looking for something in particular that I need (such as a new pair of jeans, a bag, or something as simple as let's say a tub mat) and I have the money to buy it, I just can't seem to find one that's nice. But when I've already settled on something "good enough" the shops will all of a sudden come out with all the cool ones.
  2. When you have money, there's nothing good to buy. When you don't have the money, freakin' everything in the mall is gorgeous!
  3. Someone will want to go shopping with me when I have no money and when I do, everyone else is broke. And who wants to go shopping with friends when you're the only one actually shopping?
  4. On the rare occasion that I do have the money and I actually find something I like, they won't have my size or the color I want.
  5. Whenever I somehow get some extra money which I think is great because that means I can actually afford to buy something nice for myself, a need will arise and the money has to go.
  6. When I'm doing my best to avoid the mall, the BF or the fam will somehow come up with something that requires me to go there.
  7. The stuff I love are insanely expensive and the stuff I don't like are crazy cheap.

And on the very, very rare occasion that I...

  • Have the money to spend and
  • I see something I like and
  • the store has my size

I'll try it and does't look right on me. Go figure.

Nonsense

Whoever said that life after graduation is so much better than being in school was obviously dumb. Sure it's got it's perks but nothing beats being school. period.

I had to stay late at work again and was among the last to leave the office. I was worried I'd be all alone and we all know how effective I am when it comes to scaring myself. Thankfully, Steve stayed behind until I finished and was kind enough to give me a ride to the station. If not, I would've had to wait outside in the cold for the next bus.

Looks like the heaters are off. That explains why it feels a little cooler than usual. I had to grab my big, grey sweater which tito Joma gave me so long ago even before we moved to Canada. I like wearing it around the house when it's cold.

I still haven't bought a new tub mat. I've been to the Bay and Sears and the Bay used to have some pretty nice ones before but now they just have those plain, cheap looking mats that I just don't want to buy. I would have to go look at Walmart maybe or some other store.

How come some people have such cool titles for their blogs and I can't think of any?!

LSS

I have Nelly Furtado’s Maneater stuck in my head. Funny that it’s been on the charts for awhile and actually came before Say It Right and yet last night was the first time I listened to the entire song. Loved it and immediately downloaded it from iTunes as soon as I got home. I think I’ve listened to it atleast 5 times this morning. I also downloaded some old hits from The New Radicals, No Doubt and Third Eye Blind and the clean version of I Wanna Love You by Akon. I previously had the dirty version and just felt compelled to get the clean version because I don’t think I could stand hearing him say “I wanna f*** you…” one more time. It just sounds so blunt.

I am training today and I already feel tired at 9 in the morning. I came home late last night from the Tech Awards and I had to come to work early this morning too. I’m afraid I’m not in the best of moods today. I’m actually very irritable and it’s one of those days where I’d really rather not be bothered. All I want to do is stay in my own little office, surf the net and listen to music or better yet, go home and sleep.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Flower-shaped Post-its & All That

Aha! Found some new cool blogs that I made note of so that I can come back to them and read about their interesting lives eventhough they’re complete strangers to me. This is what I get paid for to do at work. LOL!

Kidding aside, I have been working (for real) but I have some spare time and I can only surf so much so I decide to post or read other people’s posts. It is a very interesting hobby I must say.

I went to Staples the other day to buy a few pens. FYI, I am very picky when it comes to office supplies specifically pens. I would rather buy my own eventhough the company provides me with more than enough pens and post-its. My mom says I tend to be obsessive-compulsive about certain things and I think I am, in a way, obsessive-compulsive. So anyway, I saw post-its of different colors and shapes and they were so cute that I somehow convinced myself I should buy atleast one stack/pad (I don’t know what you call it). They were on sale too for half the regular price so I was pretty convinced I somehow needed them. I was having a hard time deciding between the plain, neon colored ones and the apple-shaped ones and the flower-shaped ones but I couldn’t possibly buy all of them because what would I do with so many? Plus, I also had to go look at all the pens they had and decide which ones I wanted to get. After about half an hour over post-its and pens I finally settled on the flower-shaped post-it and my all-time favorite pen (the Pilot G-TEC, in black, blue, and guess what? PURPLE! --> I never knew they had purple ones) and a box of black uniball roller pens (w/c I thought I would share with the BF and the fam). I spent close to $30 on just these items… silly isn’t it?

And so now I am enjoying the little yellow, orange, and pink flower post-its strewn all over my desk and the Cambridge notepad with purple-colored writings in it. I am such a geek… I mean who gets obsessed with such things?

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

'The Mommy Blogs'

I have no idea why but reading what I call "mommy blogs" always warms my heart. Yeah, I call them "mommy blogs" because they're blogs by women who are also moms. They're just really interesting. Sure they're just like everyone else but reading their blogs about being a mom and going through everyday life is just fascinating. It's like they're just like any other girl, still shopping, having their nails done, going to work, but they're also parents who are responsible for a child, learning different things everyday. For some reason, it seems "mommy blogs" are more sincere when it comes to writing... less afraid to share emotions, worries and fears. I, myself, am very fascinated with my mom. I love reading about the highs and lows of parenting and how fast children grow and how truly incredible it is to be a parent. I really think that parenting shapes a person. Parents have to deal with life and at the same time have to think of what's best for their children.

I have no idea how to raise a child. I wish they came with instructions or that I would know exactly what to do when I get there. If I can be like my parents, it would be awesome.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

People's Choice Awards

Here I am sitting in the dining room watching the People's Choice Awards. Thank God Jerry called me to tell me it was on TV or else I would've missed it. I love watching awards shows. It's funny though because with the People's Choice Awards I'm watching right now, it's almost obvious who the winner is for a category. It's got me saying, "Kelangan pa bang itanong yan?!" Of course I'm pleased that Grey's Anatomy won Best Drama Series and was in fact very thrilled that the entire cast went on stage to receive the award with Dr. Miranda Bailey thanking the people on behalf of the cast (I'm most likely to remember a character's name than the actor/actress' name). It was hard though because they were up against House and CSI for the award. I hope Heroes wins favorite new TV drama!

Happy Birthday Miguel! I still can't believe you're 16 yrs old already! It seems you were born only yesterday and you were such a cute little baby brother and now you're way bigger than me.

Heroes and Grey's Anatomy are coming back! yoohoo! No more re-runs! I'm finally going to see what happens with Heero and what happens with Dr. Burke and Christina!

Monday, January 08, 2007

The Wish List

Once again, I have to say that reading another person’s blog (esp someone you don’t know) is really quite amusing to say the least.

Almost everyone has a new year’s resolution but personally, I don’t believe in them. I almost NEVER end up doing them anyway and I believe in the saying that if you really wanted to do something about it, you could do it anytime so why wait until the new year? Although I must say I love reading/hearing other people’s resolutions. They always go from reasonable to possible to a maybe to hopeless to plain crazy and of course my faves – the ones that just make you want to laugh. So, in leiu of a new year’s resolution I am introducing “The Wish List”. I call it so because then I feel I am in no obligation whatsoever to accomplish them. I am merely making a list of what I want and maybe, hopefully, get them someday (by my own doing or some form of a miracle).

  1. Spend less, Save more (easier said than done)
  2. Go to the Phils or the US or Europe
  3. Buy a new cellphone (like NOW)
  4. Write more letters, make more phone calls
  5. Give gifts for no reason
  6. Ride a limo
  7. Visit the zoo (don’t ask me why… I just want to... I haven’t been to one in
    ages!)
  8. Grow a few inches taller (a girl can dream!)
  9. Buy a really expensive purse (one that doesn’t break easily)
  10. Paint my room a new color
  11. Learn how to cook
  12. Buy a car (um, think Long Term goal here)
  13. Go skating
  14. Look for a new job


This is an ever-changing list and I can't tell whether I am in fact going to get them.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Just So You Know

I shouldn't love you but I want you
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want you
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

Just So You Know
- Jesse McCartney

So Little Time, So Much To Do

Doesn't it seem like the years just fly by? It sure seems that way to me.

Just yesterday I was 7 and then 14 then I was 18 and before I knew it, I'm already in my twenties. I've heard it so many times before: Life is too short. But it doesn't really hit you when you're just 7 or when you're a teenager. To me then, it was as if I had my entire life still ahead of me and I had plenty of time. I still do have plenty of time... I'm still young afterall but still, I can't help but think that sooner or later I'll no longer be wondering what being in my thirties must be like or being in my forties. It always seems so far away and then it hits you, you're there and you're wondering where the years went. Not that growing up is bad or anything... but sometimes I worry that I might not have enough time to do what I want to do. It's like when you're a kid, you think, "When I grow older I'm going to do this and that..." and then you grow and grow and you look back at those goals and aspirations and what you thought you would've accomplished by now and you realize you're way behind. It gets me thinking, "Will I be able to do everything I want to do before I go?" Gosh, I really hope I do get as much as I can out of life.

Just the other day, JR asked me, "Ate, when you look at yourself right now and what you thought you would be at this age, do they match? Are you what you thought you would be at 23?" I was quiet for awhile and I finally answered, "Partly yes and partly no.." One thing I realize as I grow older is that life just doesn't go as planned. Yes, we can make plans, have goals, and work to have them... but life isn't predictable. There will be curveballs, alternate routes and disappointments but really, when I think about it, it isn't all that bad. It's scary to think life can pretty much throw anything at you. But isn't it comforting to know that there is a higher being who watches over you and gives you what's best for you? I think life is not so much about the destination...but rather, it's about the journey. We'll probably stumble several times, get our hearts broken, and make mistakes but that's life - the experience of it all. The good and the bad. So maybe, I didn't get everything I wanted at the age of 23 and maybe I had imagined it a little differently but the bottomline is, I don't have any regrets. I love who I am despite the fact there's so much more to learn and improve and I love what I have and who I have in my life.

As for the years ahead, I don't know what will happen. I don't know if I'll be able to do what I want to do, see the places I want to see, meet the people I want to meet. I can't say whether tomorrow will be good or bad. The only thing I can do is pray. Pray that despite what tomorrow will bring, I will remain hopeful. I will pray for a life that is good and full and the rest is up to God.

The 3 Aisles

Today in Church, the priest was talking about vocations and I found his sermon quite interesting so I thought of sharing it with you...

According to him, vocations can be likened to the 3 aisles in church. The 3 aisles are: Marriage, Single Life, and Religious Life. Although Marriage is biggest and most popular aisle, it doesn't necessarily mean we are all called to it. Some of us are called by God to live a single or religious life.

He also talks about how society perceives us depending on the vocation we choose to follow. We are sometimes pressured by family or friends consciously or unconsciously to get married and have a family because it is the norm. It is what most people do and parents oftentimes want this for their children because they know they can help them since they've already travelled that road. But when a child tells his/her parents that he/she wishes to live a single or religious life, he/she may be frowned upon because the parents think he/she will be lonely and that they might not be able to relate to the child since they haven't travelled that road themselves. He also mentions how sometimes people look at a person who is single or who is living a religious life and they say, "look, what a waste.. he's so handsome and smart and charming and he could've had a wife/husband and a family and yet here he is..." and that people feel sorry for them when they really shouldn't.

Although each vocation is different, it is still a calling from God and is equally special. All three give us joy, happiness, purpose, a sense of fulfillment and yet all three also brings pain, fear and challenges. We cannot and should not force others on a vocation which they are not called for and we should instead pray for them to hear God's voice and listen to what God wants for them.

So you see just because someone chooses to be single doesn't mean there's something wrong with that person. Maybe he/she is being called by God to live a single life. I know I'd be awfully proud if one my brothers were to become a priest (of course I don't think I'd ever confess to them...LOL). Sometimes I wonder if maybe I'm being called for something else... regardless of where God calls me I know I'd be happy.

Traitor Perhaps?

I created an account with Wordpress because I was curious as to how it would fare compared to Blogger. A friend of a friend had one and I thought maybe I should take a look at it atleast. So I created an account, found some pretty cool templates but I found it a little confusing to navigate. Perhaps it's because I had gotten so used to Blogger. I also wish Wordpress had more flexibility when it comes to adding Widgets just like the new Blogger which I love.

This is in my opinion of course but I'm sure Wordpress has some die-hard supporters out there and by no means do I wish to offend anyone. Maybe I will continue doing some more research on this.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Leaving for South Africa

How I wish Jerry and I were leaving with Suzy and Steve!

Yup, here I go again... changed my layout!

This & That

I just realized it’s a short work week! Yey! (ok, so it took me awhile to realize that)

Mr. Pres is back from wherever he came from and so now I’m forced to pretend even harder that I’m actually working. I’ve been good since I came back from the holidays, doing as much work as I can and only surfing/posting in between. I’ve also offered to help others with whatever it is they need me to do. So I’m not 100% lazy. Hehe!

Suzy asked my last night if I was on hi5 and I realized I’m in far too many online databases that it’s made it difficult for me to keep ‘em all up-to-date. I’ve actually forgotten some of my login details. I think I have Friendster, MySpace, hi5, Eskwela, NamesDatabase, Xanga, Blogger, Ringo, Live Journal and Multiply just to name a few. I know I have more but I can’t recall all of ‘em. LOL! The only one I check regularly is my Friendster account. I have yet to update MySpace and hi5. The thing is, I can’t get rid of any one of them since they all allow me to keep in touch with my friends. Althought most of my friends are in Friendster, some of them are in MySpace and others in hi5.

The temperature is unbelievably still above 0 degrees. We really should take Global warming seriously.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Photogenic? I don't think so

I was reading Tina’s post entitled “Say Cheese” and I have to admit I, myself, am not photogenic. Of course my parents refuse to believe this and to this day still take pictures of me and my bros.

I’ve got tons of pictures since the day I was born (literally!). My dad started taking pictures of me even before I came out of the hospital. Looking back at those pictures taken during my childhood years, even the ones where I had missing teeth, I thought they were all great. But for some reason when I reached my teenage years, I thought my pictures started looking pretty bad. I don’t know if my pictures are just being taken from the wrong angle or maybe the wrong light but as the number of horrible pictures increase, I start to doubt it’s the photographer’s fault… I think it’s the camera itself! LOL! Kidding aside, I really am starting to believe I’m not meant for pictures eventhough I love being in them. Unlike other people where you can take pictures of them and they all turn out great all the time.

But you know what, maybe I won’t think they’re all that horrible when I grow older…. Or atleast I hope so!

Something Different

Because of the New Year, I’ve decided to try something new…

…with my nails (and here you thought it was something really BIG! LOL)

I was at Eaton Centre last night (ok, ok, so what’s new?!) to get the boots I had Aldo repair for me. FYI, if you buy a pair from them and your heels need replacing or something, just bring them back and they’ll repair them for you for F-R-E-E! You don’t even need a receipt and it could be well past 30 days and it doesn’t matter. You just bring ‘em. They’ll tell you anyway if they can have it fixed for you or not. Anyhow, I got them back and they look brand new! It was my first time to have a pair of shoes fixed there and it turned out pretty well. Jerry and I only found out about it 2 weeks ago while talking to a friend of ours who works there.

So, going back the subject of my nails (so superficial, I know)… I had them done and I normally go for a French manicure but this time around I wanted to try something different, something I’ve never done before. I decided I would have them paint it with a dark solid color. If you know me, this is something I just don’t do. I prefer light and dainty colors. Now my nails are painted with an uber dark red (H calls it Burgundy and could easily be mistaken for black if you take a quick look). Even JR was surprised and asked me if I had decided to go Goth and whether I was nurturing a rebel in me. Of course not!

I will go back to French later on. Even though I was daring enough to wear such a strong, dark color, I don’t think I would keep them dark for too long.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

embarrassing

This whole thing about my PC facing the door is horrible! I can’t browse as freely as I’d like to because so many people walk by and they can easily see what I’m doing. While working last week, I was browsing a website and all of a sudden, several pop up windows opened all advertising porn stuff and a co-worker was walking by and said, “karen, is that porn?! What are you looking at young lady?!”

Two words prefectly describe how I felt: EXTREMELY EMBARRASSED!

NOTE TO SELF: Might be a good idea to turn on pop up blocker once in awhile and if it cannot be avoided, practice quickly covering computer monitor with anything within reach. In extreme cases, just turn off computer monitor.

I have to do some actual work now it seems.:-B

An end to the passing year

We took down the Christmas tree at the office. It’s so sad!

I wanted to add some music to my page but it won’t save it and I don’t know why… I wonder if it’s conflicting with Blogger or something.

Looking back at 2006, it was a pretty good year for me. I can’t think of anything I regret other than not taking a second week of vacation. Like I said before, it doesn’t get carried over so I pretty much wasted the opportunity. I really should’ve taken it. I met so many cool people in ’06 and I learned a few things, grew a bit (not physically though… a few inches taller would’ve been GREAT!) and had some pretty memorable experiences. Starting a whole new year makes me feel anxious, excited, worried and scared all at the same time. There’s always something about not knowing what’s coming.

Another year has gone by and it makes me happy to know I’ve managed to remain close to a few special people in my life and made some new friends. I’ve had a few disappointments, some obstacles and hard times but it was a pretty good year all-in-all and I was happy. It was a year full of blessings and I can’t help but feel absolutely grateful.

So, here’s a toast to 2006!