Suddenly feeling old

I was just on Friendster looking at people’s profiles and photos and god I suddenly feel old. Seeing friends marry and have kids and all that feels so surreal. It’s as if the last ten years or so flew by in such a blur. One day we were in high school and all of a sudden we’re adults pursuing careers, travelling and having families of our own. Where did time go?

I just saw photos of a girl I was neighbors with back in the Philippines and I was a bit surprised at how much she’s grown. This is the same girl I remember playing with my baby brother in the garden not too long ago (or at least it seems not too long ago). She’s at an age where she can practically go to bars now! I keep forgetting that the kids I knew back then are teens now and are eagerly getting their driver’s licenses and enjoying the privileges of being eighteen. If I am shocked to know that the little kids I held and played with are now in high school and probably already dating, I can just imagine how my own relatives and the people who knew me when I was younger are feeling. They’re also probably reeling from the fact that I’m half-way through my twenties now.

Why is it that before the age of eighteen, time seems to crawl and after you’ve turned eighteen, the years fly by? I was looking at my Outlook calendar this morning during a meeting with a co-worker and I only realized that one of the dates we were discussing is actually my birthday. Wow… another year! It certainly doesn’t feel as though an entire year has gone by even though a lot has happened in the past year alone.

Grabe, how do you think we’ll feel in our forties?

Kinda morbid but cute

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
'cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the No's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

- I Will Follow You Into the Dark
Death Cab for Cutie

Where did the summer go?

I feel as though we have been cheated out of our summer. It started out great with warm temperatures and sunny days and then… after about a month or so of warmth, we’ve had rain almost every other day. We’ve apparently broken the record for the “wettest” summer. AND recently, the temperature has cooled down so that our mornings and evenings are cold and our afternoons are warm.

It doesn’t seem fair that after a long and very cold winter, we were given such a short and rainy summer. Steve and I have only been able to use our Wonderland Season’s Pass twice because it’s been raining a lot. We haven’t even been to the water park this summer at all! Lately, we’ve had to wear sweaters and jackets and it’s not even the fall yet. Yikes.

I heard on the radio the other day that they’re predicting another cold winter this year. Isn’t that insane? I hope we don’t get as much snowfall as last winter. I think we had about 9 snowstorms and we had so much snow that people didn’t know anymore where to dump all that snow. A co-worker had actually given up on plowing… saying that plowing has become a pointless exercise because it would start snowing again as soon as she finished clearing her drive way.

I just want a few more weeks of sun and warmth…

Overwhelming But Fun

I am addicted to wedding websites. I didn’t even notice until the other day when I realized that it’s the first thing I check when I get to work in the morning and it’s the last thing I read before going to bed at night. I also realized that it’s the only thing I talk about these days… wedding invitations, color schemes, dresses, flowers, favours, centerpieces… whoa! It’s taking over my life!

It’s fun, overwhelming, frustrating, and exciting all at the same time. I want a simple, inexpensive wedding but I also want it to be a nice one. We have a budget that we’re trying our best to work with so that we don’t go beyond what we consider practical and reasonable. Getting engaged is pretty exciting but also a bit overwhelming because all of a sudden you’re thinking and planning a wedding. Let me tell you, there are so many things to consider! There’s the guest list, the wedding party, the venue (for both the ceremony and the reception), setting the date, the invitations, the color scheme, the dresses and the tux, wedding favours, flowers and décor and of course, the wedding budget. There are so many other things that go with it that I haven’t mentioned here (mainly because I haven’t quite gotten to that part yet myself). I love that there’s so many options out there… but it can be time-consuming. The research that goes with it – making phone calls, checking out places, inquiring about packages and the services they offer and so on and so forth sometimes feels like an ordeal.

I was just telling Steve the other day that it’s nice to be in a day and age where almost everything can be done online. So many resources and so much information are available over the internet that I don’t even have to physically visit a store anymore. I mostly check out the website first and make a call if I have any questions and if I think it is worth visiting, I make an appointment to come in. It’s also cool that I can order invitations and flowers and favours online from stores that aren’t even nearby. It can be quite tricky though because an item is usually available in so many different websites but the prices vary and you have to be mindful of customs charges and taxes and shipping fees. I also have to consider delivery time – how long to process the order and how long it will take to get here. For example, if I want to send the invitations 2-3 months before the wedding, then I have to have them in hand by let’s say December. If it takes them 6-8 weeks to process the order plus the time it takes to ship them, that means I have to place the order in September or October. AND that’s just one aspect – just the invitations. There are still favours and dresses and flowers and all that. Whew!

I don’t think I’ve planned an event quite as important or as personal as this and it is a little unnerving. I know it won’t be perfect and I know things will probably not go as smoothly as planned. But I still worry. I keep telling myself I can only do my best and see how it goes. I just have to learn to enjoy it as much as I can.

Song in my head

It had to be you, it had to be you
I wandered around, and finally found
The somebody who could make me be true
Could make me be blue or even be glad
Just to be sad just thinking of you
Some others I've seen might never be mean
Might never be cross or try to be boss
But they wouldn't do
For nobody else gave me the thrill
With all your faults I love you still
It had to be you
It had to be you
It had to be you

Stuff

I’ve been quite busy lately.

I am preoccupied with doing a lot of research for the wedding (so many things to consider! Yeesh!) and I have also been busy with work. My boss is going to be away for three weeks and I have been asked to take care of her responsibilities during the duration of her vacation. I don’t mind it at all since I like having a lot of responsibilities. But I do feel a little anxious… I really don’t want to mess anything up. I have to admit that the first two days were pretty nerve-racking. I kept wondering if I was ever going to get through the task list on time. But luckily, I was able to plow through it and get some more done today. Not easy but it is manageable.

I’ve gained a few pounds in the last couple of months and I am now almost 100 lbs. That’s the heaviest I have ever been in my entire life. I don’t want to be stick thin but I want a toned body (like the female dancers at So You Think You Can Dance…LOL). I have been trying to exercise every night before going to bed and since I’m not used to it, I am now sore all over. But I have to keep doing it if I want to be fit. I just need discipline… lots of it.

I feel as though we were robbed of summer. It has been raining a lot and we have apparently broken the record for the “wettest” summer ever. The other day, I heard on the radio that we have had rain for 41 out of 71 days of summer. And today, it rained again with… wait for this… HAIL! How the hell do we get hail in the summer?! It’s been putting quite a damper on things… I mean we should be enjoying patio season for Pete’s sake! We should be able to wear shorts and skirts and pretty summer dresses and flip flops and bathing suits! Instead, we now find ourselves wearing our long-sleeved shirts and sweaters and it’s not even the fall yet. Very annoying.

I am so sad that So You Think You Can Dance is now officially over. I don’t have anything to watch anymore. I have also read all my Twilight books and the movie is still so far away.

Breaking Dawn

Just wanted to say that I LOVED reading the fourth book from the Twilight Series by Stephenie Meyer. I had pre-ordered the book a few days before its release and I was silly giddy going up to the counter to claim it. I was so thrilled to finally get my hands on the book that I immediately began reading before exiting the bookstore.

I am not going to ruin it for you by giving you spoilers. I'm simply stating that I truly enjoyed reading it and that I was very pleased with the story and how everything turned out.

I hope you guys enjoy reading it too.

Fave SYTYCD Routines

Here are some more routines I enjoyed from So You Think You Can Dance:



Another proof of why I think Katie and Joshua are my favorite...



Different but still quite entertaining to watch...