Di ako makapaniwala, it's already Thursday and my vacation is almost over. It's true what they say that time flies when you're enjoying yourself. How I wish I could have an entire month off. Good thing that Monday is Labour Day so I only have to work four days next week. I'm honestly dreading going back to work because I know what's waiting for me...tons of work, everyday training and lots of e-mails to reply to. It's not a pretty picture and trust me when I say you don't want to be in my shoes.
Jerry said I should enjoy my week off and that when I'm not at work, I shouldn't think about it. I guess he's right... no, I know he's right. But how can I not think of it? I don't like training and I wasn't hired to train... (it's a long story) but it's something I have to do. Alam mo yung feeling na papasok ka sa trabaho na di mo naman gusto? Extremely difficult. What makes it difficult is that fact that I have to force myself into doing something I don't want to do. My mom asked me the other day why I don't like my job and it made me think...why don't I like my job? The question had honestly left me speechless for a few minutes. I wasn't sure why I wasn't happy. It dawned on me that it wasn't just one thing. Rather, it was a combination of several things that made me dislike my job. First, I don't like what I do... I implement and train clients, do Q.A., create documentation for our software, and provide a bit of tech support. I do almost everything except for what I really want to do which is programming. Second, I have a "love-hate" relationship with my co-workers..sadly I feel "hate" more than "love". Third, the pay isn't even all too well and we don't even have benefits! sucks noh?
A lot of you prolly wonder why I'm even still working with the company I'm at now and to be honest, it's good experience for me. I don't get to program yet but I'm learning all the different aspects that surround it. I was willing to get paid lesser than what I'm supposed to be making just so I could gain valuable experience... knowledge that I know will be useful to me someday. Eto lang ang tumutulak sakin papasok sa umaga. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful to have a job. Despite the fact that I would have to work extra hard to get to where I want to be, I'm still very blessed.
I am holding on to the saying, "Do your best and leave the rest to God"... I just need to be patient and let God take care of the rest.
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